I am on less medicines, so I am brighter than before. But I am still "flat". I believe once chemically lobotomized you are done. My music is brighter, but I am unable to make it interesting. Players of solo instruments will suffer from distress playing my music. Well. It must be simple to be holy.
I believe I have taken a break in my composing. To create by the PC when you feel it is read and manipulated demands a strength it is exhausting to mobilize, and I am quite satisfied with what I have made. As I see it now, I may make a piece or two for videos, but songs are not possible to make.